VeriNxD

2011-08-15T20:38:00.003+08:00

current mood: down ttm

i'm jus tired.. i'm fking tired, if to u, i am lik tat, why don jus end it?since u lik to predict, and u didnt even trust me..why don jus i end it, u always say, i cant get into the right mood to talk to you, i near, yet far, i don hav time for you, hav u ever think, i'm fking tired, everyday, time left for studies. ya, if u say i only think about myself, then so be it bah. i today really bad mood ttm, and when u call i jus don wna to affect u, n i really tired, i jus wanna cheer around, maybe really i not suit at all, i really can feel it.. since i cant feel it, and since u say till lik tat, i really tired.. u assume me of tat. fine. ur words always, make me feel so hurt, i tried to press it down, u r sad, ur life sucks, u only think u are the worst, being in ur state is the worst, to u, all u think is ur life is the worst of all, wat can i do? maybe i really not fit to be anyone fren, ANYONE. i only make ppl hate me, make ppl annoyed.. no matter how bad ppl say bad thing about u, i still tell them u r not, maybe i really not fit to be ur fren, not even bestfren. if ending it u will feel better, why not? right? do u even kno i hardly got the time for my bf? and right, i don hav time for you. when u r sick, i rush over, to see you, n u call me don go in, i kno u r sick, fine, if i don care about u, i fking don even bother to go down. i don even kno how to face you now. this frenship, it seems so hard for u, why don jus let go, bettter for u wat, don need to worry one day u DON TRUST ME ANYMORE. for wat lar..the first main thing in life.. is to be yourself and accept yourself.. if u dont, and be all so awkward on ppl's opinion. you're defnitely losing out..

2011-04-30T20:08:00.002+08:00

current mood: SUCK TTM
my mood seriously not good. i mean, i today waited for you since morning, you say call me later, okay fine i wait for u. then when u call me, tell me utired, wan go home rest, okay lorh fine! seriously wtf can? u promise me, to meet today n tmr, we both gonna be busy, and all u say was u tired to cancel out our dates?! i know u work, u tired, then me, at home, not tired.. WTF?! bee, our monthsary, 2of it u nv celebrate with me, nvm, last month giv nv buy, nvm, then now? WAT SIA. tell me u busy, then lik tat larh, u expect me to wait for u, be 24/7 to let u find me?! seriously, i really cannot afford to lose u, i have been trying so much, even i tired, i sick i still go find u, even jus a dinner, then now!? last date, we go nex, shop, all the things i buy, i know you no money, then i lei?! i nv work lei, i kno to me money can be nth, but i can tell u wat, i really broke le. and nvm of this, then say other larh, it really feel lik u k-ing me. then nvm, i say next time go out u pay larh, then u say wat, don wan, ltr i k you 200plus u die.. WTF? i'm been trying so good to be a gf, i don lik other gals, i don tie you down, i let u do wat u like, i don check on smses, i don force u to meet me at last mins.. u go ask keith, ask geof, ask ppl out there, u see larh, i treat u no good meh? ur fren lost my thumbdrive i nv complain, i nv fa pi qi, i jus normal. i sad, but i nv do anything. cause of u, nv giv me an quan gan, i feel lik shit for 1whole month. nan de, i jus recoverd from emo-ing, u make me disappointed. i'm ur gf, not someone u wan find then find don wan then go missing de. tmr, last day, last chance, if really cmi, then forget it. i willing to giv u up. and no worries, u will feel i am a bitch de :D tmr see how le. don make me go die heart, i cannot afford to lose u boy..

2011-04-04T12:54:00.006+08:00

current mood: down
well, this seriously happen alot of stuff..
first, M&E..
well, i totally disappointed by her.
i seriously cant believe i'm her fren for 9yrs.
see properly, 9yrs, and she can think i am a slut?!
ya, i agree u did not SAY the word slut, but u explain to others i am a slut. -.-
wtf? i seriously, from last time, ppl say u r unable to trust, but i still believe u.
but then? u jus cause ur bf lik tat. seriously larh, i got bf lei.
and not only u lie to me, u make up lies to make everyone believe u.
seriously larh.. telling ppl different stories, making ppl believe in u.
wtf? when i heard the conf, i totally stone, of how u describe me.
and when i ask u about the prob, u can 100% sure, when is not the prob.
i seriously find myself stupid to go trust u and cried for u.
as i'm sure my blog no one know, so u don hav to worry.
i find tat seriously u can use ur body to gain love, wat for sia..
stone, you kno..?
aiya watever, u got wat u wan, sex, love, ur bf, and everyone beside u thinking i am a slut.
well, i cannot be bother more right..?
but why sia, why always i still care for u?
when i eventually still believe u, believe tat i can trust u?
u kno how badly i wan trust u?
but when i ask u are u sure, u lied and say yes. wat the fk sia.
then tat day yh wan conf, then when u heard is me, u say u don wan hear anything.
wtf? should u even hav the rights or not?
i seriously don kno why i care so much when u don bother at all..
seriously idk why i need to cry, seriously.
true fren hard to find, fren u trust not to make u disappointed is even much much harder.
then when tat day, bf and bff quarrel, i seriously tired le, one pop out.
make me worried again, then now idk wat is their r/s also. fren? stranger?
then i gone so worried for my bf, he when driving at high speed on high way..
then bff..? gone emo also, idk wat he will do..
seriously i need worried now one is 4 ppl.
then after tat another fren prob pop out, worried for 5 ppl.
although i ant help much for tat fren, but still worried for her.
then nvm, hanging out with xin, yh they all, really could get my stress time out..
totally hav fun in tat world. now alone at home, fking thinking alot.
now, sch, r/s, f/s. wtf, wats more? all this stuff i cant tell out..
i cant even tell my listening ear who always there for me de. feel lik going mia sia..
ytd, mood not good le, cheer up to normal, mom scold me for nth.
and he at home, help me say words, but nv cheer me up, i really sad sia.
but i should expected, u mention, u don lik cheering gals up, u find it ma fan.
but i really feel down, yet...
maybe really no expectation, no disappointment bah.
and i rmb u r going to mys wed or tues, do u rmb our monthsary is this fri..?
maybe i should not go think, should jus pass each day lik normal.
why am i getting into this state?
i rmb telling myself, not to fall so deeply for u, not to get hurt, and now?
thinking too much getting myself hurt.
u also mention don wan buy gift, then well, forget it bah, i do my part of giving u le.
even idea also giv u, is up to u le.
fml, why why why do i need go so emo for this little thing?
i should really don go for expectation, so there wont be so many disappointment.
i kno all this i should tell my bff, but i really don kno how to tell.
and i kinda kno wat he will say. wat's the point?
who can really lend me a shoulder..
ppl who r not involve with all this? i think of someone, yet he is related..
and now, he fking don bother. forget it. seriously i shall mia.

2011-03-17T00:33:00.001+08:00

current mood: crying while writing this
我真的很累了。。累倒不能了。。真的很累。。为什么日子和您就不能好一点呢？为什么我和好的时候，偏偏你就要发脾气，和我吵架，您心情不好，我不是您的出气筒，想发脾气就发脾气好不好？人家说，孩子是拿来疼得，不是拿来给你当成出气筒，想发脾气就无时无刻就可吵，闹，然后，我不想吵时，就说我不孝，在朋友面前，扮好人，你不喜欢的人，就在我和你吵的时候，污辱我朋友，你想想，为什么我也不想和你聊心事吧。。从小到大，你变了，变得不是我从小为我的那个妈妈，我要回我那个我爱的妈妈，不是现在的你，只是会对我发脾气，把工作的不开心放在我头上，一心为了钱，拼命到看医生也不肯去，受伤也不去看，钱在你身命好像比什么都还重要了。。我不要现在的你，我好怀念我那个妈咪，我一直崇拜的妈咪，咪，放下过去好吗？daddy not worth it larh. 不要因为他，而改变你自己好吗？妈咪你懂吗，我真的很爱你，不要让我讨厌你好吗？我求你了。拜托你。

2011-02-01T18:04:00.003+08:00

current mood: sick..
well, it's been long since i been updated my blog.
well, it is lik 2 months le bah.
this two months happen alot stuff also.
first, 4&5dec go to soka fdsd camp, make alot of frens.
cute frens. hahas.
the camp was all fun, throwing away all the troublesome emotions.
then after tat, go meet keith's online fren, his frens don lik me.
cause of wat i said, which was a joke. haix.
then after meet another fren, Edwina. 16dec. she's cute, and nv don lik me i guess.
she call me grandma. hahas.
then after tat, love heartbreak, 20dec. pain die me lorh.
for the first time he so close up and cried.
and at tat time, i can feel, really he will come to me when he is in need.
then after tat we when to malaysia from 21dec till 24 dec.
wasn't tat fun as his heart are still injure.
then after tat, come back then straight away go to SIS for dance.
hahahs, fun but boring still.
then after tat, 31dec! new yr count down!
when with bff, jac, yiming and shaohong.
but jac when home early, so me n the guys.
count down was kinda fun, when we self high lorh.
hahas, then after tat, new yr first day, go collect necklance with bff.
our bff necklance :D
and i'm sick again? fever. eeks.
then after tat go poly open house:D
on the 6jan, when to npy with christohper.
when there and find jason, hahahs, so funny playing and fooling around. =X
then 7jan didnt go.
when on 8jan, the saturday to tp open house with sf.
well, this day is where i got myself out of the SINGLE world. >.
well, the whole day was at the camp, he pei me walk here and there.
then night time we when to eat, then head home.
he pei me wait bus.
gosh, rmbing this is so ps. >.<
well, at bus stop(or interchange), he keep wanna ask me thing.
when i feel lik whole day he wanna ask le, so he keep asking, "i wanna ask u sth".
then for the 3 time, he ask for the wat if.
then i say maybe, then he asked me, well, and i agreed.
and tat night, i told bff.
next day, when out with bff, he was lik keep fooling me, keep say i don wan go find sf meh.
then on the 10,got result! so nervous lorh!
scare fail x.x then once i got my result, i didnt see, pass to keith, he say not back all pass.
I WAS LIK OMG ALL PASS?!
then i got 19 points! with cca, 16points! :D
if total 6sub will be 25.
gosh, happpy tat i passed. but bff was damn pc with the result.
he got c6, so not happy, his art is lik so nice, why larh.
don believe lorh.
then 12jan, when to interior design. design my room:D
on the 14jan, make phone with bff, his phone sot ttm lorh.
jus buy one lei.
then this week, was sick and sick and sick lorh.
then sick till go see doc on the 16jan lorh.
then got mc for monday, well, i don kno causal don need pass mc.
so i in the gong state, pass sf the mc to pass to one of the supervisior who kno.
then he call sf to pass to devan, then devan make till everyone also kno.
well then whole fiesta kno le lorh.
on the 18, when out for movie with chris, jane, man chong, su wee, jolyn, lesh, wilfred, sf.
then 19jan when to bff house after work, waited him so long.
he was recording at sch.
21jan, go collect bff phone. >.<
slept at bagus then go find bff, damn tired.
then next day go out movie with bee.
23jan, sick at home again.
THIS MONTH KEEP SICK LARH.
then cook for babybee.
then 24, late, sms umi, GOT THE WRONG NUMBER!
kanna scold, then nvm, then some stupid manager, scold and scold and scold.
then 28jan go out with jocelyn and cass.
then this day fever.
night fever till wake up, sms maricel. then say cant go work.
eeks.
then head pain ttm lorh.
then the next day when out for lunch with keith, then go out lik one move wan die lik tat.
damn uncomfortable. walk and cry.
then i told bff, he say jokingly, aww so forceful, then i was lik hurt, i don kno why larh.
then he say he forever don wan joke with me le.
then i was lik haix, then sadded larh.
affected. i also don kno, but i feel our r/s is getting from bad to worst.
then 30jan, mom then kno i fever, then lik going crazy lik tat.
keep wanna me go hospital.
then i was lik don wan.
then yesterday, sf come my house, running a fever!
today also fever!
sick for so long, more and more sick for this few days.
then now at home lorh, tmr go work.
pls pls pls get well. now head giddy.
well, jus wish everyone around me well.
and my r/s with everyone is normal especially with keith.
signing off. <3

2010-12-02T16:26:00.004+08:00

current mood: down
this few days wasnt feeling good, idk why, jus don feel in place.
was thinking, me and u, is getting far apart, but who can i blame?
myself, who ask i go work, cant pei u.
now, even myself cant promise u such a small matter, lik, the cold replies.
i don even notice tat, maybe is lik u say bah, is in me.
when i can rmb and change, i then tell u bah, i don dare now.
i don dare to comfirm i can prevent myself.
fml seriously.
then i now feel lik so helpless..
lik all you need is someone to hear you, but all i can do is make u sad.
now all i can do is to let u be, if u wan to be alone, i let u only.
all i can do is jus make u more fan, for wat me?
u r tired of ur life, i don wan to add more, this few days, make u so fan i don wan add on le..
jus i wish i can be by u when u sad.
but i only seems to make u more sad nia. haix.
maybe i souldnt fan u nowadays lorh.
when u need me, giv me a call then, i will be willing to hear u if i can.
i will try my best to get to u asap.
pls get well soon, seeing u lik tat, frens around also will be sad.
but at least, infront of me, u didnt act up u r sad.

2010-11-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

current mood: lols..
cause i say lazy but i came blogging. LOLS.
okay, nth much, jus recently worked, kinda good nor, only got a gal, she is captain nah.
then keep ordering ppl lorh, manager also nv. F3
then work tired, really no time tink of u, making everything much more lighter.
and u also stop smsing me le, maybe is time bah.
hmm, then other then tat, nth much lorh. today buy nail polish, 3bottles:D
siao de, hahaha, then now gonna oinkoink le.
hmm, nowadays mood swing nor, hope can get over it, cant really control my sadness. ):
suddenly miss sch days, at least i wake up at 7, not 4. hahaha.
hmm, go off le, or not tmr wake up late AGAIN, today woke up late, cab, $8.40. GOSH.
nightnights, lollipop dreams, muacks. XD
i miss dear, dar, love, him, dumb,xinxin, xingan, my class. SOBS! TT

2010-11-17T02:04:00.003+08:00

current mood: angry and fan shi ren!

damn angry with mom. keith now damn having fever and now all i can do is to blog my feelings.

today he running a fever since last night.

then i damn worried la, then today go over his house till 11plus then come home.

then he say he go slp le.

then jus now he sms me, say he running a fever of 38.5, then dripping tears lik hot hot de.

i was lik damn scare la!

fker mom don let me go his house. she still say wat i girl.

then i was lik , HE IS MY BFF LEI!

then quarrel, then i say, okay i don wan to quarrel. i fking worried.

then then she still down there watch tv, then keith at home running a fever lei!=.=

really pc, then she say call keith mom la, then if can then keith also don need sms me le wat.

then nvm, then now idk how.

he say he tired wanna slp, fking worried, i don wan lik clannad, slp le don wake up

*TOUCH WOOD!*

but really worried sia, then now idk wat to do. gosh, fking worried.

someone can jus do me a favour go his house take care him? RAWR!

then nvm fb don let me change my name. WTF?! then nvm, then got ppl pester me.

on9 fren pestering me, fan shi ren.
then he fan nvm keep ask ask ask, comment wat say i neh bi, i kno la, need fking tell me n be a pervent mah?!
fk my life seriously. then i now wan a shoulder, I CANT FIND ONE!
then keith there how how how?!

FK MAN! can someone jus go over his house?!
rawr, then i also running a fever with cold. sian.
mine i still okay, jus uncomfortable, but keith there how?
haix. now jus 37plus nia.
zzz, jus now left his house he still okay sia.
37.2 now? 38.5!!
RAWR! i wish i can help him sia.
haix. mom keep tink gal gal gal thing.
super worried sia.
haix. pray he nth pls.
i really wan someone now, why am i in such a fking situation!
now cry also no use, all i do is worried for keith, pc for the fking on9 fren and hack-ing care my fking headaches with cold. =.=
seriously, i kno no one come read my blog, so i'm fking say i'm happy to blog my feelings.
okay, mel still got bah, but now i wan someone help! mel oversea. gosh, kinda miss her le.
lols. asked sebas, he say mom cant go out find keith.
darwin didnt reply.
how how how?! i guess keith kinda will disappointed with me.
lik bff also cant stay by him. lik wtf is this fren sia.
going pesstimistic again.
someone save me pls...... god!

2010-11-14T23:32:00.002+08:00

current mood: normal
hmm, jus post blog for fun. nth do.
well, actually got alot la, jus tat now took a break.
lols. this few days gonna be busy.
well, ytd go to wild wild wet with keith, mel and sebas.
hmm, morning wake up, sebas call him wakey meet at 8am, he wake up at 8.15am!
then i woke up at 7.15am. lols
hmm, then we head towards www, apon talking the bus, the bus changed route!
HUMPH! TT
then walk a bit longer way there. rawr~
then when reach www, put things into locker, AND THE WAY WE GO!
hahahaha, i was lik so famn high =X
hahaha, then played the 'slide up' 2 times. FUN:D
then played the 'ULAR-LAH' 2 or 3 times. hahaha
when the cam took my pic, both looked damn retarded!
well, then we when to play the rest, alot of time, hmm, but didnt play the 'the waterworks'.
hmm, then got one lifeguard funny ttm! hahaha.
then i found out we can go www take hot bath too :D
then the lifeguard still wanna tell us when we are heading ther after everything.
gosh, we played from 10 till 7 sia!
hahaha, then bathing time, mel damn cute, she on the hot water ttm, then she dk, then it was...
BURNING HOT! :X then she ran out with only her bra on, lols.
then i was lik, wat happen?! then i saw wah, u zai.
then i try throw my wet shirt, MISSED.
she throw her wet clothes, missed.
then i took of my fbt, throw, AT LAST~ of the famn hot water.
we were laughing lik hell!
hahaha, then the toilet no ppl come de. lols.
then lik we two left bra, i with panty on. lols.
then we were lik, u have de i also hav nvm la. lols!
hahaha, then damn funny lorh.
then my hair was damn not smooth de.
forgot bring comb also. x.X
then we go makan, then head home.
hmm, a fun day! :D:D:D
then mel keep chi our duo fu! :X
well, tmr going shopping for grad night stuff:D
hope we all hav fun tmr!!:D need wakey at 9am bah :X
hmm, nth much le, logging off! MUACKS~

2010-11-07T16:20:00.002+08:00

current mood: lan dao max.
cause i jus break my frenship with one of my close fren.
i kno i fking stupid, but i rather someone need her more than me with her.
to me, although she is not top, but she stands a place.
she sometimes makes me wanna kill her, but i don wanna lose her.
but as hwo another close fren i hurt her, keeping another is the same.
all i do is hurt ppl feelings.
i had enough. i choose cause u kno more than me, he need u more.
i rather give up, jus for his happiness.
since when u with me, all u got is sadness.
we quarrel, i act normal. lik nth happen.
sad about u, i couldn't do anything.
maybe i guess, losing frens tat is close to me is much better bah,
cause keeping them to me, jus make them more sad.
u r the 2nd one i hurt, i don wan anymore le.
no matter wat, u still stands a place in my heart.
as for him, idk why, i jus cant seems to bear to see him sad.
he cried for u, u kno it's how fking hurtful?
i jus feel i spoil the relationship of u both.
i giv up, at less helping him got a bit of happiness wo yi man zu le.
wo bu guai ta, xi wang ni bu hui.
i rather alone myself, than making anyone hurt even more.
sign off. fever makes my head pain more n more. =.=

2010-11-07T06:09:00.005+08:00

current mood: mixed up.

cause happy n sad.
cause i wan he to be happy.
i don wan him to be sad, so i jus hope he can get happiness.
when he called me, i was lik, yeh? he cried.
cause of her, he cried.
and i somehow know, u kinda used me, but i don blame u.
i don kno y i jus couldnt blame u, but tears tap flows lik fk.
sad like fk. lols. lik in ur life is only left her.
then nvm, change topic with u, luagh alot. lols.
i guess tat the only way i can be relax le.
i fake a smile so he wont see~ lols.
now i jus hope le happy can le. i don wan him le.
maybe is really the test bah, i'm just suit to be guys' bestfren, not stead.
gosh, i love fb test. lols.
it say my jap name is yuki, korean name is dae.
so my name is lik, Verin Yuki Dae?
hehehhe. nice lei~
some result i like or got:
-y i still single, cause i too shy or not eager enough.
-10 things ppl love about me. unqiue, creative, cute, funny, shy, fun , playful, open-minded, pretty colourful
-then 2 kiss test, wat kind of kiss am i, got is tat i'm a shy, soft kisser. LOLS
-prefect nickname: DUMBDUMB :D
-cute nickname: gumdrop! XD
-5words disscribe me. girly, spunky, bossy, special, SILLY! :D
-boy like about me, hard to get. *i was lik lols???*
-wat makes me special, my eyes. *small, so special?*
-wat candy am i, CHOCOLATES! XD
-wat food am i, CUPCAKES~ YUMMY~
here are the some. hehehe.
so now jus forget it lor. this so call r/s didnt happen b4.
so whoever kno/guess, i jus wanna say, don blame him anymore.
jus forget such thing had happened. nth had hurts me at all. I'M STRONG YA!

lols, damn fake, lols, if esther saw this, she will fking say i'm dumb.
lols, cause she kno i'm faking. lols.
esther, gal are born to be silly and dumb. like my test said.
i'm dumbdumb and silly XD

hhaha. well, go slp le. nights all.
fk, he is the 3 guy person i cried ttm for i thing.
grandpa, bff, him. lols.
nvm la, at least u teached me wat type of ppl i should giv up. :D
gosh, i feel i so different for last time sia.
now i see myself, i also will laugh. lols.

2010-11-06T07:08:00.007+08:00

current mood: uncomfortable.
well, cough, flu, headache all at once. lols.
today cried lik tap again.
cause quarrel with bff again, actually is jus me nor.
i always think too much, think no frenship ppl will be more happy.
cried and lucky i did sth right.
hmm, we share our secret, hmm, swap bah.
kinda shy XD ahahaha
is all after de la, if jus now i wanna post how sad i am.
i guess i deleted it.
hmm, ytd, or last night when to celebrate fren's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY(:
so happy eat le LET'S SWEET! hehehe
eat with birthday boy, darling, giant BFF.
but the movie sux sia.
LAST EXORCISM. SUX.
poor birthday boy.
i guess we all regret. x.x
then when back.
hmm, then mel didnt watch, lucky sia.
makes me wanna puck the show. sux.
a camera man run here n there, then so giddy.
then same sux as BURIED.
lols. mhm, after movie, when home.
then bff sad me cause i lik ps him today.
cause he say half, i lik don listen le.
hmm, lucky solved.
then today night time, ahahha idk is i should should say good or bad.
cause called me cause of her, asking all about her.
totally ur words tear me apart, i was lik, i sad enough with bff le, u still tear me into more pieces?
then i jus normal lor, act lik nth, but still crying cause bff, then heart cracking lik eating crackers.
all u think is her, i totally giving up.
then u cheer me up, cause i sad, thx.
i hate my life.
haix, now don wan think le, BFF nv angry me can le. XD
wanna say to BFF, "today i', sorry, i'll nv be so stupid anymore. i'll try to change. love you XD"
to him, i don think u will see la but still," idk u kno or not, jus stop tearing me into smaller pieces. it hurts. i'll get over you, jus don tear me into smaller pieces anymore. i'm small enough."
to she, i think u kno who u are, "don hurt him anymore, he gou ke lian le, ta yao zou pen you er yi. wang le wo he ta de shi, bu yao hen ta le, ta shuo ta zhi shi xiang zou peng you,okay?(: love yaXD"
last, nights! or morning ya? hmm, slping le. woot, save $$, lols. now daily got $3 plus nia. ke lian me. TT
well nights all, happy bff not angry le XD muacks ^^v
will be changing the pic soon XP those kinda old :P

2010-11-01T12:01:00.003+08:00

current mood: normal bah.
i really don get wat u trying to do to me.
i gave up. but why are u still treating me more than a fren should me?
i don lik it if u really don love me, got love her la!
making my life so difficult.. it's like, u kno i lik u, and u lik keep mention her infront of me?
i kno, become lik last time, but how? tell me how?
i really don kno y u love her so much, although my post is still about you, jus wanna say i gave up bah.
i got to stop thinking u will turn back. cause u wont.
good luck for ur job, and ur birthday, i really don kno wanna go or not.. we are still frens (:
now to me, i don hate u, don love u le. jus good feelings bah? and some angry.
other than tat, nil.
ohya, YOU STILL OWE ME A MEAL! or $6 also can(: pls faster giv it me~ no cheating!! :P
nowadays, fn also about Os. don kno can score well or not.. haix.
adding up, i'm moving away, totally miss every single memories at this area!
times with BFF, fun with close frens, classmates.
and hard times tat been through.
most of all, ,will MISS MY BFF!!!
he always there for me, even when i somehow say he also kno, using ways to help me, really touched by him. *to touching de touch hor*
i really afraid after poly, and move away, i wont not able to meet him up anymore. TT
always talks about this, tears drop..
god, pls don make me lose anyone around me anymore..
i also lazy to explain to anyone anymore, if u guys keep think me n my BFF got anything jus think lor, i can jus say i love him, but not in th sense of relationship. i do jealous of some stuffs, but i jus say, is i don wanna lose a BFF lik him. thats all. and i loved others guy. is fucking obvious, so stop making our life so weird tat keep say we two tgt. thx. (:
gtg, got exam! hmm, gonna study this post wasted me about 30-45mins sia. X.x
byes to anyone who come my blog :P

2010-10-29T04:03:00.002+08:00

current mood: sux ttm.
idk wat happen to me. reach home mom stomach pain, lik i had today.
then take care her, so scare she sth wrong, now resting.
then go in audi, idk wtf i so angry with audi, seriously pc.
and is with the guy who join our fam.
i have no rights to angry, idk why i fking angry with him.
idk why and now idk why the fk i cried.
super angry!!!!!!
ite i make him feel zzz again.
idk wtf i jealous sia? its lik i jus feel i so extra there. u had so much fun, really don need me.
idk why i think tat way, i really don kno.
sorry.. really sorry.
i think i only kno how to make you pc, so angry with myself.
tears flow down from jus now till now. fk man.
i hate myself, seriously fking hate!!
=.=
i hardly put this, today this is the 10?
guess not enough slp, today bad day. now so tired, tears nv ends.
i'm really sorry i hurt ur feelings again. really sorry. BFF.
adding more pain, i go think of you, my life sux ttm! mood bad ttm.. but no worries, i don love u ttm le bah. tired of bleeding. did u even feel hurt? i think all of ur mind is only her bah...

2010-10-22T01:53:00.003+08:00

current mood: confused, frustrated
i really don kno is i think too much or wat, there are other possibilities u doing this.
1. u really love her, don love me at all, thinking of using me to forget her.
2. u did like me, but u still love her, now loving her.
3. u love me, but don wan i sad cause u going oversea, maybe not coming back, using her to make me give up.
4. u don wan inside ur heart got me n her, so don kno who to choose.
i really can think of so many ways, now jus this few i think more possible,or maybe this are not lor, idk.
i keep telling myself i don like u, i don lik u, but i still go think of u, maybe if i nv kno u lik me b4, i wont be in such a painful situation.
putting this aside, angela n mel sad about me, i make them upsad, seriously, i don feel i worth lor, i really vr tired, if u guys don wan fren, wat give up de, then fine, i giv up too, cause u all don trust me, if with me, all u guys got is a bunch of hurtful stuffs, then so be it, i don wan tie u guys to me, i still wan this frenship, but it's lik, so xin ku for u all, i rather give in, lik how i love him, i rather he got happiness if he really love her..
now just i'm tired, tired of this tiring life, mom, sch, love, frens, money.
i had enough! haix go pig le, tmr got sch..

2010-10-17T15:55:00.004+08:00

current mood: super down
okay, is super damn long i touch my blog, no one come my blog so tat's mostly no need to la..
but really toady i relaly don kno how le, i need to tell out someone, somethings.
i know he wont come and see, and no one will come and see, so it's okay to post bah.
recently, i fall in love with someone, on 04102010-0135, we stead, and 04102010-2205 we broke up, he requested.
the moment he ask, i was so happy, but when he say, his not totally into me, my mood is lik, hang.
now, i don kno wat to feel, how to feel, ytd, when to ur house, was so happy, enjoy although its boring.
but some stuff seems to be normal again..
the way u treated me, i somehow feel it's normal.
seriously i'm fking jealous.
do u still love her? so we not tgt?
in ur fb, u say u r stubbon, u will wait, it cant be me, right?
so it's her, so u still loving her RIGHT?!
so is tat a sign to giv up?
is tat a note to clue me to giv up?
u call me to choose, HOW THE FK I CHOOSE?!
ytd was really happy for me, so happy can see u once more.
please tell me, do u still love her?
she still say she kno u care for her, but she love someone else, so does it means u treat everyone the same?
equally nice..
so is just u treating me nice cause fren?
shiit man!
everyone around me call me to give up, but i don wan, but somehow, it's lik u don love me but is lik u love her..
i'm fking jealous!!!
she think u still love her, so is lik, u givin her the way u love her.
so it's lik, i'm jus extra?
maybe really i should giv up, or not u will hold on me.
right?
sua, i shall see on ur birthday, if u n her ever kiss, i give up.
somemore u told me, u don kno she in ur heart is how many %, wat the hell can i do!
and u say u trying hard to get her, so is not me wat, right? okay i give up.

2010-07-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

current mood: disappointed yet happy too...
disappointed cause of my xin gan, it's like situation is like tat loh.
she owe me money for more than half a yr, i hvn been rushing her until i in need of this money.
today i msged her, cause i need to put back my bank of both up till $300plus plus le, i simply in need of money lo, not tat i'm evil la..
i mean if u see ur own bank left with $5, ya nv hear wrong 5DOLLARS!!
will u try to get back all the money?!
and it's been yonks loh, lik i do go care, i kno u low in cash.
yet wat i hear is, YOU GONNA SAVE $500 DOLLARS FOR SO LITTLE TIME, and u say u can, then hey, mine is lik 5% of it? o.o!
because of zw, u dint return, i can try to understand, now is lik i kno la!
ur bf, but is really lik "hey tats my money loh, i kno u wont run away la, but i in need of cash, or not also wont rush la!
hav u eventhink u in need of money frens are there, lend u, wat so ever de, yet when i in need, I JUST GET BACK MY OWN MONEY! WATS WRONG!?!
i seriously don get it, it's lik u say till u got the rights to get angry and i don hav loh.
if really u so unhappy me, jus say, don need to call who who who to tell me u unhappy.
and u had changed so much i really don kno u as is the old u loh, u give me a feeling u become more n more ah lian..
*ps if got insult i'm sorry*
but i can say i'm really unhappy, u seems to nv put in the effort to return anyone of ur fren, yet, for ur bf u put in suc tremendous effort..
if u say ur bf 21st birthday is more important i kno, if i say i'm left with 5dollars, suffering without money, mom will not give me, WILL U RETURN OR NOT?
or u expect i go borrow? c'mon, it's my money, have u put urself into my plight?
u wan me to put myself into urs, did u?!
i'm just disappointed with u, even the way u wanna return the money is so bu gan yuan, i really sad diao loh..
if u still think i unreasonable i really don kno wat to say..
logging off, go audi le, haix..
ohya, happy cause i'm jus emotional, problem solved.

2010-07-08T01:53:00.002+08:00

current mood: cool down, yet ......
well, i really don kno how to go and face u, it's lik today jus this matter, i really don kno how to go n tell u, i can say, this time, i'm not brave. i not as brave as to go n tell u how i felt. do u kno wat u disappointed with me was tat, i was much more disappointed? as in, i felt, okay, at least u got someone to pei u, i'm fine to leave u alone n u go find lady kaka, i jus felt, really angela said, because of u, i forget their appointment, always reject their outings, cause i felt so bad not to pei u, don bear to see u lonely all alone. i always hope u come my blog, to see all those words i don kno how to face to face talk to u, without nancy, it's harder to tell u how i feel. i still thinking, should i give u up, i don kno how u see this as, i jus felt maybe fa kai ni, u will be more bliss. i felt tat tie u to me it's lik u said, u rather be with ur family then not so suffering. i cant cr8 those things to do to prevent ur boredom, greatest fear was to see u break down, sometimes i hate myself unable to help u, really hate myself. i cant so anything, seeing u because of me mentally and physically tired my heart hurts, yet i only can make u angry only. it's like i only mentally insane and physically crying, unlike urs. when seeing u broke up, i really with u can give me a change to be there when u sad n not always so strong, it make me feel lik infront of me u cannot weaker. and i wan to say yes i'm jealous when u got a stead, it's lik u will tell everything to ur stead than me, i afraid to lose u, yet i felt, if i let u go will u suffer lesser or not, maybe u will think, then for wat the ring?! make n u nv think b4 u say n u wan break frenship... disappointed. u kno, today i just felt i really leave them out too much, jus today n u say u got lady kaka, so i think i pei they lor, don always stick to u, then ppl wont keep thinking we r tgt, so u will less trouble, as in lik in they both, they will felt lik i nv giv them any slot in my heart, always u. and yet u told me, i treat u same as them, i really got stab in my heart. i really don kno how to how to face u ltr at sch. if i get away from u, i hav a highly chances u kno. pls pls pls! READ MY BLOG! ALL POST ARE MOSTLY BECAUSE OF U! and u kno me, i'm sux at those twise n turn, i cant understand if were not straight. or take more time. i think i better slp, i cmi, tmr still got sch. haix, night.

2010-07-01T01:15:00.002+08:00

current mood: SUX!

这是我这一生最痛苦的一次之一，在厕所哭得好痛苦好痛苦。。向上一次，我就快要跳楼的感觉。。心里一直有HARUHARU的歌，想起那个故事，我快要不行了，今天好几次都想要晕倒，这也不例外。没经过大脑，只想对对的人不可隐瞒。。

2010-06-30T01:43:00.002+08:00

current mood: in pain!
in pain cause teeth & cramp!
TT
suffering!
then cant slp, lack of slp!
for example, monday started school, i slp at 4am, wake up at 6.52am.
today de is 3.30am slp n 6.45am wake up.
jus now at my block cats were fighting, noisy ttm!
now sound lik crying, if dk is a cat, if not, still can imaging is a baby.
LOL.
well, gonna adapt to sch life agian, serious lack of slp.
gonna brush teeth teeth then go pig pig le~(:
night night, candydreams!
VerinLoveYou~
*to those ppl wonder who i love, i can just say no one, as in BoyGalRelationship, cause i really single and don't like anyone guys up till now.*

2010-06-30T00:55:00.004+08:00

current mood: relaxed~
well, how come relax...?
cause..... i find out, I'M NOT!
phey~
as in to the previous post..(:
well, is not tat i'm sad cause jealous, is cause i'm just afraid of losing you...
well, is lik i said, is no wat i think, therefore, today i found out is really not!
IS JUST AFRAID OF LOSING YOU!!
i sometimes dk how to tell u stuff, and u always find ways to giv me, or make me to ask to get the answer i wan.
really glad, and when i had all this section chat, i found the answer whenever i'm in doubt.....
well, was worried cause i kno, WELL, there will be no outcome, maybe jus some reasons loh...
but i now can comfirm, not!
heheh ^^v
for this, i can comfirm le, really really comfirm!
so high possibility wont!
i don expect anyone to reply this msg, jus post lorh~
well, will stop here~ shall post another post~
stop this for now~ cya!

2010-06-28T15:49:00.005+08:00

current mood: totally vexed...
i really don kno wat happen to me.....
did i........?
cannot be tat i.........?
i really don wish i really.............
hope not, well, is not always the way i will see it?
now is jus hope i'm not........
haix, so rare post and now post such sad thing.....
I HATE IT!
and so many homework.......
haixxxx............ no mood post le, bb....

2010-05-17T18:51:00.004+08:00

current mood: frustrated
i really feel i fail to be a fren, an wei ren also don kno, hearing u feel so disappointed, i still make things worst, you havin me as a fren is it better or worst?
mostly worst ba, i really don kno how to help, whenever u angry, i jus wish i can be right there to help u, but, it came out to make things worst, and u had to make the mood up, u ownselves zhen zuo, i didnt help at all, i really is no a good fren, i can only learn from u, and make u pc bah, brought to u de appears to hav more anger then happiness, too yi lai ni, if really u gone, i really don kno wat to do.
jia hua mei jing guo da nao, xiong da mei nao, maybe really jus nice fit me bah, i really don kno how to help, and make u feels, no one cares, da jia dou tai yi lai ni, shi de ni zhen me xing ku ba, wo hui xue xi zhen me qu gai, ran ni zhen de ke yi kan dao qi ji ba, ni de tian shi hui lai de.
i really don kno how to say to u, maybe really nancy is good ba, idk somethings i jus don kno how to tell u, idk y, i wan tell u but i don kno how, maybe by this way or wat bah, hope u can read this soon.
hopefully and i really don wish u have given up ur life, this may sound er xin, but we need u.
diu bu qi tai yi lai ni ran ni wei nan le.
i really don kno wat i can do, see u kanna hurt, i cant do anything, i guess hurt u even more mah, make u so disappointed. haix.
only can pei u, lend u ear.. i really hate myself for being so worst......

2010-05-09T23:25:00.003+08:00

current mood: happy!!
got my new lappy!! damn happy!!
heheh, got a new god dad then got comp, wah so good thing who don wan!!
hahahahaha!!
omfg, i love this comp!!
hehehe!!
but the on9 warranty got prob lei.. T.T
haix, still having exam~
MT O lvl coming!!
DIE AH!
AND MOM!! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!(:
LOVE YOU(:

2010-05-03T11:29:00.003+08:00

current mood: a bit piss off
piss off yet i cant do anything..
hiax, well, currently at fren's house, then overnight.
then sleep at quite a late time cause cant sleep, then we slept at 6am plus.
then jus now at around 10.37am or earlier, which i check my phone le, was being waken up by the loudness of the show was on by my fren mom.
trying to go back to sleep but i failed so, it noise was too loud then i jus cant fall back to sleep.
lie on the bed till about 11.20pm, i try listen to earpiece then sleep, but cant sleep too.
so wake up n blog since so long never blog le.
OH HELL EXAM TOMMORROW!!
and super stress up.
really wish my english i can pass lo, I DON'T WANT TO RETAIN!!
haix, soon i will become needy le(:
everyday study.
well, i kno lar, alot of ppl will say, "eh, u study? impossible".
well, up to u all ba? cause i really wan to study le.
ohya, hear 9may is mother's day, guess will be celebrating with my mom.(:
deardear, think ur birthday party will be earlier oh~ X.X

2010-04-03T16:20:00.002+08:00

current mood: down...
so long never post, almost a month, haix.
nowadays de mood so bad, cause some stuff caught up..
cant get the mind to study, worried about frens' stuff.
but i cant do anything to help, got to get my head in the studies!
and i also need to make my mom feel tat i care about her, this year, i feel there is gonna be a big change.
i feel it, maybe, gonna change alot loh..
i just wish i can get the score i wan of O lvl.
PLEASE!
haix, i wanna be free!!!!!
well, say about studies, now cant catch up with it, hope to FOCUS and to ABLE TO UNDERSTAND!
especially POA, english, okay lar, is ALL!!!!!
i jus wish can back to the starting of the year.

2010-03-11T19:42:00.002+08:00

current mood: normal??
now at home, so bored.
sick lor, super sian at home.
don kno wat to post.

2010-02-08T00:53:00.002+08:00

current mood: feeling sick..T.T
well, today woke up, sick.
so long never able to make a post.
well, it's like almost a month i didn't blog.
rotting le bah.
well, nowadays so busy with works, almost everyday go home quite late.
next week CHOIR FLOOD AH~!!
well, so long, many things happen.
really stress up with school work.
i really want 12points.
but everything seems to be difficult and impossible.
i wish for the following...
Engilsh: B3
Mathematics: A1
Chinese: A1
Science: A1
POA: A2
Combined Humanities: B4
L1R4: 8
L1R5: 12
but now is like so impossible.
and really impossible lar.
maybe this i can try aim?
Engilsh: B4
Mathematics: A1
Chinese: A2
Science: A2
POA: B3
Combined Humanities: C5
L1R4: 12
L1R5: 17
so now really chionging like hell.
so stress up, everyone beside me is like so clever.
unlike me, i just cant make it in anything.
especially my english.
haix.
then the up coming new year got nothing to do.
NO ONE CHIO ME OUT!!
T.T
now seriously very tired.
today, cook donuts.(:
now just wish everyday be happy lor.
getting weaker and weaker..
haix..

2010-01-16T01:31:00.003+08:00

current mood: slpy bah..
currently felt abit slpy, but cant slp lar!!
hair so wetty~
T.T
well, as anyone can see, so long nv post le!
cause few days b4, my house's broadband got problem..
the cable had a error to blame..
then cant use comp also..
well, sch restart about 2weeks le, teachers are teachin damn fast..
haix..
well, nth to type also??
today went to ecp again..
hahah, same old group??
i'm tinkin, when deardear back to sch, wat will happen to 3of us..
hope really deardear and darling back to normal and everything is jus a mistake.
hope so..
well, cant do anything also..
ohya, reader, nv read my blog le?? (:
sadd~
LOL!
well, now really slpy, so, byes~~

2010-01-03T03:41:00.002+08:00

current mood: okok?
it's been so long since the last post, well, tmr gonna go to ecp again.
jus an outing before goin back to sch...
well, happy tat got into sec 5N1, bbut not really happy some ppl same class..
will be a busy day bah, after sch start..
GOT TO WORK HARD!!
GOGO O LVL!!
hahah, sot le..
LOL..
well, wish tmr can go as smooth as possible bah..
HUNGRY NOW!!
LOL..
really hungry sia..
X.X
don kno wanna eat or wat..
then mom today so good, buy for me so many things(:
then all for new yr lar..
hahaha..
=X
don kno wat to post le.
well, jus end off here bah, night

2009-12-26T06:35:00.002+08:00

current mood: i seriously don kno wat to do
seriously i don kno wat to do.
how how how?!
nancy tell me to tell him wat feel, don giv up on wat i tink i'm right.
cause i really didnt emo.
and didnt bring emotions to fren, cause at first place i really nv emo.
and which all this cause u given up on me.
maybe really tat i'm really hopeless bah.
is not wrong for u given up on me.
not wrong at all.
i guess really i'm hopeless ba.
cant do anything right.
maybe givin up is the only way bah.
seriously i really hate myself.
maybe u understand me, and i really cant, or even nv understand u bah.
how can i understand others when i cant even understand myself?
i really jus a useless and hopeless piece of junk in this world bah.
nth le.
i lost my pencil case.
i miss it.
maybe sometings can really remove all this pains bah.
goin off, night.

2009-12-25T01:36:00.004+08:00

current mood: don kno wat to put
seriously, i really don kno wat to do.
always, always, ALWAYS!
y u always make ppl angry?!
y r u so stupid?!
so dumb?!
i really hate you.
really hate you lik hell.
come to emotions, watch shows, got 感动的 part, CRY!
ppl slap u, CRY!
fall down from bridge y nv cry?!
ur brain got prob isit?!
make ppl tink, u only kno how to cry to solve prob.
IDIOT~!
STUPID!
i really don lik u sia.
idiot, stupid, everything ppl hate!
i really hate u sia.
ugly le, still so tao ren yan!
hen fan lei ni!
and really lar, stop makin ppl tink u lik tat ppl can?
treat ppl so good, make ppl mistaken.
stupid sia.
really hate you.
hate you lik hell!

2009-12-24T16:21:00.003+08:00

current mood: 闷吧..
haix, so 倒霉 nowadays..
ytd, or not should be tis mornin, when home time, fall down from the bridge.
now here n there more painpain.
well, postin from monday, 21/12, celebrate melissa birthday.
then we go ecp.
mornin wake up late, cause slp late, then sebas also late,
then we go ecp.
then they all eat mac, then i wait sebas de time, eat rice.
then go there, then go bench sit, then play the whisper game.
then after tat wanna play double dare, but all thje rest become no mood.
then 4 of them go off.
then left 6 of us.
then we go play, DDR.
then play till keep on play.
then after tat when home.
i so disappointed in myself, i cant play well.
then the next day go, also same, i really noob can?
haix.
then is lik they all improve.
then even melissa lor.
even i die, is melissa nv die, i die lor.
i really disappointed in myself lor.
then ytd go do facial, then rebond hair!
my mom so good(:
then after tat go movie wif eugene, keith, sebas.
then go home, then fall down from bridge, haix.
sometimes i really don kno need to tink more or dont.
i really don kno wat to do.
y am i so stupid?
say ppl, also say urself bah, smc.
speechless.....

2009-12-20T22:56:00.003+08:00

current mood: -nil-
well, don kno wat mood to stat.
well, got back my result.
YEAP!
PASS!!!(:
but cant count much, cause no math.
T.T
well, here r the scores.
total 14 without math.
ENGLISH: 4
COMBINED HUMANITIES: 3
CHINESE: 3 (merit)
SCIENCE: 2
POA: 2
then super disappointed in my chinese.
我最看好的是华文，in the end?!
DROP LIK HELL!
T.T
haix, then jus happy n 吓倒 tat combined humanities n poa can get this score.
haix, don kno lar, RAWR.
now, math need count prelim, zzzzzzzzzz.
haix.
T.T
wish all same class lar!
i don wan class wif some ppl.....
X.X

2009-12-17T23:03:00.005+08:00

current mood: weird bah
i really really don kno wat to do, i cant cheer u up, cant do anything right.
i tryin, but how?
actually i ytd was tinkin u busy, then nvm, ask u out today, for dinner.
but in the end, u asked me ytd.
i try keep lookin, tryin to cheer u up.
i don kno whether i did or not.
try to look out.
see whether u feel sad or not.
tryin, but even if i kno u r sad, wat can i do?
i try to tink, tink of ur songs, those cute n funny songs, but, will it work?
i guess, the whole world, 最不了解你的人是我吧.
我真的想过, 每一次, 都是你让我, i tink back, i really is a stupid fren.
for example, ytd, i finish it, then i relise i so selfish, again.
y cant i jus tink more? react faster?
STOP THE SELFISHNESS?!
all the quarrels, everything, all because of me.
ytd i make another fren angry.
is lik, for wat i spam msg??
then make ppl pc.
是我活该, 自己找东西被人骂.
我真的很想打你, smc, 为什么你那么欠打?!
我真的很讨厌你啊!!
为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么?!!
你不时很强吗?
不是可以control不要哭吗?
why now cant you?!
strong lar, u stupid dumbo!
ppl call u dumbo is right.
so stupid, cant u get more clever?
clever!
get more clever!
at less, can see ppl in good mood or bad mood, don always so selfish.
tink tink tink!!!
WHY CANT U TINK?!
stupid or dumb?!
nvm, u r both.
really stupid, dumb, idiot.
ppl call u to use ur brain to tink, did u?
even if u did, u r ?!
WHYWHYWHY?!
SO STUPID.
i rather u gone in this world.
cause really u r useless to tis world, jus a useless gal.
really useless.
cant u be more useful?!
白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白吃白!!!!!
nth can seem to do right.
u cant do anything right.
when can u be 清醒??
WAKE UP LAR.
YOU STUPID DUMBO, BIMBO, FATSO!
SO LONG, STILL CANT GET SLIM.
SO HEAVY.
SPEND 2YRS, STILL LEFT 4 MORE KG.
THEN?
EVERYDAY, WAT IS UR LIVING MOTIVE?
NONE RIGHT?
THEN GO DIE LAR.
WASTE FOOD AND SPACE.
JUS A JUNK WAT.
SO MANY PPL DON LIK U.
SO UGLY ALSO.
NOT SUIT CAN?!
死了算了!
跟好!
不写了,烦死了!

2009-12-16T03:41:00.002+08:00

current mood: *speechless*
seriously, is jus because my stupidity causin all this.
jus becasue i'm careless, hurt ur feelin without noticing it.
jus becasue my carelessness, stupidity, hurt u so deeply.
i really hurt u deeply........
u always there for me when i cant make it, maybe causin me to tink it is a nature.
but it's not.
y cant i be more mature?
i seriously hurt u super duper deep.
y jus cant i tink far, tink more?
rmb more, see more, feel more, then all tis can prevent.
haix.....
i seriously really hurt u......deeply......

2009-12-15T23:25:00.001+08:00

current mood: 闷!

today, don kno wat happen again.
no mood to post, currently listenin to 我知道.
haix.
this pic taken ytd or the day b4 ytd bah.
jus upload lor.
no mood post le, currently fb-in.
how i wish the new kno fren can on9 pei me chat.
haix.

2009-12-15T04:59:00.012+08:00

current mood: can say is angry??
well, totally nth to say.
seriously u r gettin more n more ridicules.
i really kno u care for me, but need so over?
aiya, don wan care u le lar, lame lor.
talk about others le.
amm, jus kno sth, so i wont be postin white post le, i really don kno tat usin a different internet can cause different result of blog.
so i'm not postin white post le.
unless really wan to, or forgot, or not, mostly no white post.
the end.
well, ytd or the day b4 ytd, jus meet a new on9 fren.
she is really i funny lady.
well, so post on her n my chat.
well, is a copy&paste.
PURPLE: ME, PINK: SHE.
(the chat start.)
u r?
HELLO VERONICA!
remember me?
nope, i tink u got wrong ppl
oh man..
oh
???
i added the wrong person
how do u kno my msn?
veronxd@hotmail.com
argh i'm sorry
lol?
nvm
but anyway
i'm bored.
you don't mind chatting with me? *laughs*
but you give me a moment i'll go add the right contact now.
ohh
yeah i got the right one already but too bad she isn't online.
ohh
ok?
well, actually i already thought of talking to some online new recognise friends and... talk?
well i guess i did? by accident? *laughs*
hahaha, nvm
is tat veronica ur fren?0.0
yeap.
ohh
so qiao veronxd
what's qiao?
coincidence
oh i see.
in what language?
in chinese?
oh no wonder.
well i'm from america.
i only understand english.
sorry.
i still can understand some shortcuts i guess? *laughs*
nvm
but my enlgish not tat good either
don't say that.
up to now i understood every single thing you said except for the... ' qiao ' ?
well actually it was like this, veronica told me to add her in and i was late by quite long already.
it was so called a new known friend by my the other friend.
so i add her and that's why i asked initially if she remembered me?
well let's drop this topic.
are you there?
yap
i'm currently at singapore now.
which country are you from?
sg?
you mean singapore?
yap
that's really coincident!
so you are also right now in singapore?
i'm a singaporean
yeah i know but right now in singapore?
yap
wow.
hey let's not waste time and talk about a topic at least? *laughs*
okay?
well ur new fren is from where?
america too.
ohh
so y do u come sg for?
schoolin or?
i knew her when i was in america and it had been, months already i guess?
for work.
ohh
how old are you?
i'm 22.
16 this yr
i see so you're still schooling currently.
am i right?
yap
i'm currently at my friend's house and she is so inhuman, leaving me alone outside the living room and gone asleep.
i think i will be finding a nice job for myself after exploring around singapore for a while.
give myself some vacationing time?
ohh
okay
hahahha
wats ur job currently?
well i have no job.
i have been studying until this age i just gotten my results just months ago.
what about you?
gotten your results?
ohh
which sch u schoolin at for the past yr?
not yet.
not a great school.
sometimes, i don't really like to talk about my results and my school.
i find it so lousy.
but i'll tell you.
alright for my results is just, average.
that's all i only wish to mention. *laughs*
and for my school
ya?
well you could make a guess of those lousy schools in america?
you know any?
well, not really
u jus tell me will do?
hahahah
alright alright.
making me feeling more embarrasing telling out my lousy stuffs.
really to say out? ..
ya? nvm lar
CAD.
argh..
ahh
full name?
Community Abu Dhabi School ?
after i graduated from that school, i actually did went to a better school for further studies.
that shcool is still not bad.
American International School of Lusaka.
ohh
and until this age i come here to work and live with my friend.
also from america and came here earlier than me.
ohh
but she is two years older than me so she have been in singapore and experienced for two years.
icic
then y don u stay wif her?
she also did almost the same thing like i do but only different school but came here also at the age of 22.
ya i am currently now staying with her.
but only temporary.
it's not so good to conquer other people's private territory?
so i will be looking for a own house i hope?
cause i think i will be working for long here.
anyway, do you mind talking about love stuffs?
hopefully you can be the one helping me to not feel so tense so much...
sry
late reply
lol
amm, up to you?
well it's alright.
well actually, i just broke up with my boyfriend about half a year already.
sometimes i still had a thought about him.
thinking back about the break up.
i'm puzzled, u said u say wif your fren, well, before tat u say ur house owner ill-treated u
do u mean ur fren ill-treated u?
i didn't mention about anyone ill treating me?
are you sure you got the right message?
u say u r alone outside the livin room?0.0
leavin u alone?
sry i'm blurred
oh i think you got the wrong message.
ohh
what i mean is, not accompanying me when i'm still awake.
going into her own sweet room sleeping away.
ohh
so i'm alone outside the living room using her laptop?
ohh
icic
yeah and then.
it was like this, i actually loved him so much but, after don't know when and he was like starting to give me a cold shoulder.
which i feel very uncomfortable and only one day i asked about it and he totally threw his damn temper on me!
i know he is working hard and stressed up but that doesn't mean he can blend everything together am i right?
it is how i feel and just wanted to make thing clear.
i was the one who requested the break up but, i regreted actually.
until now i still had that a bit of thought of regrets.
i feel very uneasy
what should i do?
well, where is ur bf currently?
still in america.
u mean
yeah?
u two break up at america
and
then u came sg to work?
find job*
yeap.
absolutely.
i have no idea what to think and what to do. whenever i think about this, i feel quite down...
ohh
well, actually i cant help u much either
i'm jus a teen who is younder then u?
younger*
nope, it's not like this.
doesn't mean younger and you can't help.
i'm just a lost person and don't know what to do.
someone younger than me could be more matured than me.
and i knew i am those who are considered not my age type thinkers?
well, currently ur bf is not in sg
so maybe the possibility of u tinkin about him is lesser
ohh
icic
well actually all for all is just someone to hear me.
i could have thanked you for that.
well, not a porb
prob*
thanks anyway.
welcome(:
i also don't wish to mention much as it might affect you?
bothers people much i know... love...
just partly of my stupid story and that's actually quite enough.
i should know i'm a big girl and i should settle stuffs myself.
nope, u did not affect me
well, sometimes, tellin out will feel better
not botherin lar
i see.
then what about you?
how's your school life? great?
not really
why?
tell me about it.
neither good nor bad
maybe i should help you and not you helping me. * laughs*
well bullies surrounded?
is i bein dislike by ppl in my sch
you did something bad?
well, lucky i got best fren there to lend me a shoulder
not really?
well that's great.
maybe because my looks?
a girl best friend?
your looks?
or my last time attitude?
well those people must be idiots.
i mean, i'm jus a fat girl
n last time, my attitude sux
well sometimes you should also reflect on your own also.
if you think it might have been your fault.
yap
now tryin to change
fren helpin too
well you can change?
yeah that's good.
so a girl best friend?
i guess?
well, is a guy fren
hahah
oh i see!
cant believe?
that's rare.
yap
we find it rare too?
hahah
i tink*
well, majority has same sex best friends to be.
so does he treats you very nice?
well, i tink is rare, mostly same sex can understand each other more
yeah that's it.
well, i'm glad to hav him as a bestie(:
hahah
he treats you very nice?
well, how should i put it?
amm, well, he treat me well too
but not into those LOVE type bah
lol
well i can understand if you say that.
but remember to sustain this close friendship .
not easy to have one.
then what about
you have anyone you like in school? or something?
nope
currently no one in love
i wish i have
hahaha
that's rare too?
mostly youngsters about your age fancies someone.
ya
i do last time
but in the same sch
lik for 4 yrs
well, all guys lik nt really got my att to lik?
well, sometimes it's like that.
how long have you been with this current best friend you are talking about already?
i see.
well, somehow a yr?
well if he really treats you well, and i guess in one whole year you both could know each other quite well already?
we got quarrel in the at first
somehow?
hahha
you can consider him if he isn't attached or fancies someone already?
well, nv go think of it
well, i tink, i don wish to break this frenship, since is lik we so close
do you have even a little feelings for him?
well is not always the case.
have you ever wonder if you could succeed making out with him?
jus becasue of this LOVE stuff cause us to get worst
you can try some other way maybe not directly.
and have you ever thought if you both being together, do you mind?
well, i didnt tink tat far
you should.
simply jus bestie
why not you put it this way, if you both were lovers, do you prefer that?
well, nv think of it
well you can think now.
n well, he is younger then me, which he do prefer someone younger than him?
prefer. you already said prefer.
but love is not about the prefering thing or not but the feelings.
when it comes to the instinct and well, just like that?
well, i don wish to tink tat much, causin myself to fall into a uncontrollable situation
well you never know.
why not i ask you if you don't mind.
ya?
when you know someone fancies him, do you feel a little afraid that girl might be with him someday?
well, nope
do you get jealous when some girls talk to him?
amm, no?
hahaha
well then i don't know but you could have tried out with him.
but it's all up to you too.
wat u mean as u don tink?
did i say don't think?
opps
know
sry!
i mean if you had a little of that feeling then i think you should try out with him.
but no then i don't know?
ohh
no lar, cause i wont go so jealous lar
i mean
he is jus my fren?
not someone i lik?
so wont jealous lor
that's why i say try out.
the term 'try out'.
or also up to you like i just said?
hahaha
don tink so bah
n i don tink he will lik me?
hahahah
how you know?
i kno i will nv kno whether he will lik me or not
try asking?
in some ways?
alright if he is willing to be with you, would you accept?
can try?
><
but don tink he will lik me
he like any girls currently?
well, he didnt mention anything? LOL
how old is he?
well younger then me
15
i see.
wow then another rare one?
or for singaporeans are not considered rare?
y isit rare?
doesn't like someone?
if he does i think as a best friend he will tell it to you.
in my country, many many, maybe 95% of those youngsters like your age have fancies and even already attached.
well, in sg quite alot is attached
well, many jus some bah
n we r the some?
or maybe your best friend like guys? *laughs*
i see.
sorry just being a little self-entertaining.
nvm
or do you prefer girls? *laughs*
well, i tink ppl lik same sex in ur country quite alot too?
well i lik guys for sure (:
yeah actually nothing to laugh about but i'm the more...into the correct sexual type.
so just some joking laughs
for those gays and lesbians.
have you ever thought that maybe your best friend could like guys?
nv tink b4
n i don tink he lik guys bah
does he stick closer to girls or guys?
his actions?
his likings?
u mean?
all these can tell if he likes which sex i mean...
well...
well, he got both sex frens?
well which closer?
amm, gals?
cause he prefer to chat more
n guys mostly don chat much?
n chattin is a hobby to him?
well i'm not sure about that and it also have to depends.
alright i see.
alright
maybe you can.
like..
alright have he kissed someone before?
amm, ya?
hahaha
is playin then kiss de?
guy or girl?
as in his first kiss? if you knew anything about it...
eh
is lik playin then dare to kiss one
alright
is it his first kiss?
well, to us
first kiss is giv the sex u lik
so to him
he don tink tat is?
well i don't really quite get you.
you don't mind explaining in another way?
i mean
we did chat about tis topic about kiss
well to us
we tink first kiss is giv to the sex u lik
which he tink his first kiss isit given out
which mean he lik gals?
well that's a unique way of thinking and it's the first time i heard.
all along i know is, you will never give out your first kiss to anyone until you found someone you really love.
well, we always play true or dare, so well, is given out?
mine is given out to a gal too?
but it's too extreme.
and you would reject it.
we jus playin only
but it's something that you shouldn't take it to play?
no matter what it is still first kiss.
i think you singaporeans are really special, to us.
maybe that's you guys.
i should learn more. * laughs*
mine is given to fren by accident so i don mind kiss a gal le
hahahah
well then any other first kisses?
if that is not considered one?
well, nope for us?
what you mean?
i mean besides the first kiss, any other latest ones?
yap
one when we wan disturb one of our frens
then dare them to kiss?
hahah
well i seriously don't know but all i could say is.
what i think,
really you wouldn't so easily give out just in just a game or something.
but maybe that is you guys.
yours is different whereas you gave it by accident and don't mind already.
hahaha
but towards guys i still cant
unless given out then maybe can pplay dare by kissin a guy
which somehow i still have my first kiss?
well..
alright?
hahahaha
see how u see it bah
hahahah
maybe we r the more crazy type?
yeah that's what i'm thinking.
unique and more...crazy like you said.
well, is sg there r groups of differnt type of ppl
well, i tink u met the more crazy type one
hahah
but at less more friendly?
well i guess so.*laughs*
yeah.
most importantly.
then those proud ppl?
i hate those.
well i think it's getting very...early? or late? *laughs*
i should get some sleep.
see you when i go the free time.
i think you will have to wait until, don't know when?
okay
hahah
see how bah
but anyway thanks for the accompaniment chat.
goodbye.
welcome
goodbye
n good night
sugardreams
(end of chat.)
well, really quite a funny n good chat bah.
hope to chat wif u soon?><
current time now is 8am, jus nice.
okay lor, now go pigpig le.
nightnight
or should i say good mornin ah?

2009-12-13T03:36:00.002+08:00

current mood: pehchek!
seriously, i kno u care for me, but i already grow up, and is lik jus wake to near by only?
no so fast till go until don kno where right?
if i'm scare, i wont be walkin too.
pls, i jus walk near by, not tat far?
LOL.
i kno u care for me, but sometimes, too much?
i kno u love me, n i'm only child, but cant u change the tinkin of, "only guys send girls home, girls cant send guys home"?
and i jus pei him walk a bit only, no send home?
._.
seriously, u still cant stop the tinkin of "男女松散不清" de ting?
how i wish i'm a guy, as in, no mom's tat tinkin & at less, no monthly prob?
LOL.
and gals alot stuff also disadvantage.
n jus now really vr ridicules lor, wat i go oversea tat time, u keep pray no ppl will wat wat me.
._.
pls lor, even if u wan also don hav lar.(:
watever, now gonna do other stuff le.
well, WHOEVER COME MY BLOG, PLS TAG(:

2009-12-11T04:39:00.011+08:00

current mood: better
here r some pic from the trip to KL & Genting(:
this is keith's de di(Glenn) but not the trip taken de.

a view from the bus out the window, on the way up to KL.

the custom of sg.

at the custom of sg.

the way to Malaysia

at malaysia.

at Malaysia.

the view from our hotel at Genting.

at Genting, the only thing i buy

the game which only i play.

keith n sebas wif the view.

view of Genting

view of Genting

the foggy view if flyin coaster(superman)

the food at the karaoke(in the end, i nv eat the rice n chicken n fillet)

ALL DESSERT(:

the view out the window back to SG.(still at KL.)

the view out the window back to SG.(still at KL.)

the sky look so nice~(still at KL)

then 1 Malaysia?

emo me? 0.0

the view out of the bus back to SG.

on the bus taken this pic, the only pic got we 3.

crazy keith n me(:

2009-12-11T04:14:00.002+08:00

current mood: mixed
well, jus cry finish, almost wanna post a post on how pc jus now is.
but in the end is a test.
can u lik, be older than me?
LOL.
seriously really thanks, havin u as a bestie, really i hav no regret.
although always disturb me, makin me pc u sometimes, but is at tat moment?
but really some of ur jokes i kno is u jokin, but sometimes still will angry, no matter wat, i still a gal.
well, for the pass few things, u always testin me out, then tellin me how isit, tellin me wat i should do, teachin me alot.
really thanks, i will try to change, as for today de, be confidence about the decision i made, don always folo the flow.
if i'm right, ppl don believe, tat is their prob le, they so gu zhi, no matter wat u say also don believe, no point arguing back.
always trust urself, they don believe is their porb.
don argue back if the so gu zhi.
no point.
i will try to change tis stupidity of me, thanks.
MUACKS. LOL.

2009-12-10T18:37:00.004+08:00

current mood: weird!
well, weird is because my stupid dream.
jus woke up.
T.T
wth do i hav tat dreams sia?
it's weird.
ok first, we don kno go where de fastfood restaurant.
then Q up.
then got its lady infront order alot thing, so we waited vr long.
then after tat left me to bring up this thing.
a big big bowl of rice and i miso soup wan a big bowl of soup.
then don kno y, if nv rmb wrong, nick put the miso soup into the soup.
then the counter saw the soup then scold the cashier ppl and took it away.
when the counter saw it, he not talkin english, then nick they all left.
cause all help to take the food upstair.
also don kno y wanna help this lady.
then after i took the bowl of rice, then at the staircase, 2 ppl at the bottom keep startin at me.
i got scare, run up, and i don kno y i hug SHAOHONG!
weird!
then nvm, then don kno y, suddenly sittin on a bench, then keith infont of me, then i don wan eat shaohong de rice, i eat keith de, then funny part, shaohong wanna eat, i keep call him hug me.
WEIRD!
then nvm, werid part lai le, shao hong kiss me by the side, then so DAMN 粗鲁. then got the 胡子, so damn pain.
then keep kissin?0.0
werid.
then nvm, somehow, in the dream after i hug him tat part cause i scare, he become my bf?
LOL.
then don kno how got to tis place, we gonna slp at, SLP ON FLOOR, then i don kno y, i can throw popcorn out then is lik a forest beside the place we slpin?
then after tat, don kno y i keep movin back, then after tat meet calvin, which i don kno y shaohong, the so call my bf le, become calvin!?!?!?!
DAMN WEIRD?!
then beside him was lik don kno is lihao or justin(our sch de).
then they wanna est m&m, which i hav, tat time go Genting buy de m&m!
weird.
so woke up till now keep tinkin this dream!

2009-12-10T03:20:00.009+08:00

currebt mood: SLPY~

as you can see, i really damn slpy.
but hair is wet!!
T.T
well, today is our formal outin(:
then got me, deardear, xingan, peipei, cpl and sebas.
then we all meet at my house, expect sebas, cause we 3gal make up.
lol.
then meet sebas at bk mrt.
then he is the only not formal de.
then he bring us the a busstop, WALK SO FAR DE!
then we go eat pastamania.
then we walk here n there.
then after tat go to cathey watch case 39.
then go home le after tat.
lol, after the movie, we go take mrt, me n pei miss the train, cause too full.
LOL.
well, here r some pic taken.
deardear n me(deardear laugh until so happy XD)

me n xingan(i look lik hamster in this pic, also don kno how come sia~MUACKS)

deardear n me

xingan n me(cingan say wan far view)

xingan n deardear(blink blink teeth)

xingan n me

xingan n me(behind us is peipei, blowin wind, makin us laugh)

xingan n me(blur version)

deardear n me(and i weird guy behind who look so unglam X.X)

xingan n me(bit blur)

2009-12-09T03:51:00.006+08:00

cuerrent mood: slpy~
well, gonna slp, jus wanna say, BLOG IS DONE~!!
all thx to the last de skin de owner, wo delete the pic.
i need to re-edit a new blog~
hope everyone lik it.><
well, gonna slp~
TMR GONNA HAV OUR FROMAL OUTIN!!(:
*to those who tink it lame, simply jus fk off*
well, also hav can say a pt b4 deardear go for her heart op.
wish she can 平平安安的 and safe~
我爱你哦~
MUACKZ~~
gonna slp le, tmr need wake up early.
night all, sugardreams~
ohya, the pic of trip to KL and Genting will upload soon.
*but at facebook post le*
sorry~ <33

2009-12-05T03:12:00.005+08:00

current mood: ok?
hahahah, so long nv post blog, cause got go oversea!
hehehe..=X
gonna be a long one~
well, then ytd jus back?
X.X
well, when to Genting n KL.
first day(29/11), woke up at 5plus.
then when out, meet keith n sebas at keith's house de downstairs.
then go golden mile by cab.
then took bus at 7plus?
well, set off at around 8 bah.
then we in bus, chat abit then at the back, ALL SLEEP(:
then reach KL.
guess wat, STUPID BUS DRIVER anyhow stop.
then we anyhow walk.
then in the end, keith's father saw us.
woot~
when to hav lunch, at a restaurant.
well, the restaurant is like so damn high class~
then not use to it.
=X
suddenly i become formal?
X.X
then after lunch when to Genting.
on the way, buy some snacks and drinks.
when at Genting, OMG lor, damn cold.
X.X
then check in.
then walk walk, then keith buy le new jacket and choker.
then go into the (Ripley's Believe It or Not!) and a so call werewolf ting, sound scary, but nth lor in the end.
X.X
cause too long, then keith's father left b4 we went in.
X.X
then dinner we 3 eat, well, i eat mac they eat dk wat fastfood de.
then we go watch Ninja Assassin(M18) and guess wat, the ppl really believe lor.
please?
well are lik 15,16,16?
15 cheatin lik a 18~
OMG.
then nvm.
the movie nth de.
only gore then blood alot, so fake?
X.X
then after tat, when back to hotel, well, quite late le, as our movie is lik so damn late.
X.X
then keith bath first, then sebas, then me.
well, sebas at first dw bath de.
X.X
then we force him.
or not he slp di shang!
hahahaah~
well, then they zai, off all light n close curtain.
then so dark.
=X
well, no long after, SEBAS SNORE!
zzzzzz.
then make until i cant slp.
X.X
yet, still fall alslp~
next day, so damn cold!
stupid sebas open window.
X.X
then so cold.
wanna wake up then me n keith go hav our free breakfast.
then when reach there, the Q so long, then go back hotel call sebas wake up.
actually is jus for 2 ppl per day.
then we 3 go hav breakfast?
MAC.
then we when to buy tickets, well, LONG Q again.
then my boots also huai half le.
then lik so wth?
then when in, then guess wat?
me left wif RM6 well, sebas got RM1! (:
then we both pass the money to keith, LOL.
then we when in, play some games, then got the high high de, they two dw play.
X.X
in the end, i played it solo.
XD
so fun!
well, then go play superman, so scary lor.
the whole game i kno wat happen is, i hit my head side to side, then when turn upsidedown, i fly then hit the top.
then same ting happen, hit head, hit the top, hit head, stop.
._.
then head so pain.
X.X
then we go back hotel to hav our lunch, WHICH IS OUR SNACKS?!
LOL.
then we so tired, rest.
X.X
ok, maybe is jus i tired bah, then sebas go open the window again!
so cold when i woke up.
RAWR!
then when to the outdoor theme park.
then play afew lame game, go back.
then was lik so wasted now tink back, i wan tat teddy!
T.T
well, haix.
then we go eat.
when back hotel.
then we slack slack.
play play.
then watch vid?
in sebas phone.
so funny.
then go buy food again at around 12 plus.
dinner at 8plus?
then eat le abit.
when back.
well, we sot sot, play n play, don kno how, play tink don kno wat.
sebas massage chair?
then so LOL lor.
cause sebas cant slp.
then i go new pillow?
call keith's pillow?
hhahaha!
a crazy night!
then sebas sit on chair, keith slp at there, then i slp at keith's stomach.
but wake up tat time is all go own bed slp(:
hahahah~
omg, got more crazy de lor.
then we woke up late, keith;s father wanna fetch us at a ltr time le.
then we when to check out, well, is jus drop the keys, almost late for it.
cause we late woke up.
X.X
then we when down at lobby wait for keith's dad, then at the lobby there.
then when on car, go eat lunch, then we go karaoke!!
hahahah~
eh, no, is we lunch the check in hotel, then go make CONTACT LENS!
then we hav dinner at there, is the karaoke come wif a buffet.
in the eat, i eat all is dessert.
X.X
then we lik singin, sebas lik jus don sing?
T.T
then we play wif the high keys and low keys.
lik make the dome higher keys or lower keys, so funny lor.
then around 9, keith's father came, our singin till 9.30pm mah.
then we dw go back hotel so early, so we go to this club?
or pub?
or watever?
then go there, ppl singin, then we 3 drinkin coke.
or should i say cock?!
hahahaha, is in the cid sebas show, say wat sg english de.
then coke say till cock.
LOL.
then we play game.
i vs keith.
then 5 lost for 1 forfeit.
then for me is kiss sebas hand, keith is kiss sebas face.
then is we two wan disturb sebas.
X.X
then after the kiss, we play awhile only, cause sebas dw.
then we play, loser dance for 2sec.
then till 4beats.
then 8beats.
then take turn, u dance wat, i dance wat.
LOL.
so funny.
X.X
then when back hotel.
we sot le.
really is a crazy night.
first is don kno how.
then keith bite sebas, then i also wan bite, then we lik keep disturb him.
then we wan make sebas horny.
then he tat ting stand.
then do funny lor.
LOL.
then i help keith disturb sebas.
then play play till i go bath.
then when i came out, STILL PLAYIN!
then so odd the pattern lor.
then nvm, then sebas disturb keith back, omg, he sound lik gonna cmi lik tat.
X.X
then i keep help disturb sebas, then we play lik crazy lor.
but non or they did?
LOL.
then they keep playin, i slp le.
then woke up, help then cover blacket.
then slp again.
well, we overslp again~
they both go bath, cause play till tired then jus slp?
LOL.
then we when to hav lunch, then visit keith's bro, so cute can?!
omg i can tell u, WO AI SHANG TA LE!
he so damn CUTE!!!!
then damn cute lor~
then we when too restaurant to hav dinner wif keith's father de family.(if don get, nvm)
then he book a room at the restaurant.
then lik so high class lor, but i become abit more casual le.
X.X
then sebas still lik shy shy de?
=X
then we same a few songs,then when out.
then when wanna get on car. he throw me a empty box or sweet de.
then i chase him, then dk how, i fall.
-.-
then so pain can?!
X.X
then lik so retard lar, jus because a box then run here n there.
then fall.
then nvm.
go back hotel.
we collect our contact lens!
mine is pure hazel n keith's is brilliant blue.
the the guy giv the contact ask us to go to the club,pub or watever place.
then keith quite fast can wear le lor.
ZAI~
then go out.
then we go to the so call club or pub or watever place again.
then sebas drink coke again.
n me n keith share tgt the beer wif his father.
then we disturb sebas.
pour the beer inside.
X.X
then he lik gonna drank.
then we play play until, sebas play till slap me back.
then i cmi.
so pain can?!
zzzzzzzzzzzz.
actually is keith call me dk how slap, then i don kno.
then jus normal slap? then he slap me back.
-.-
then i keep drinkin, then until abit blur.
then go back.
bath le, SLP.
ohya, i kno a new fren there?
LOL.
then mornin wakey,go eat then go home.
BUS HOME~
then at sg, go home lor?
hahahah, currently type till slpy le, gonna slp soon.
then today go movie!
NEWMOON.
well, quite borin, and endin sux.
then go home.
actually is 5 ppl de.
esther thendk say wat, then cant go.
say wan go, then msg say don feel lik watchin.
LOL.
then sebas nv see twilight, then go pei us wat.
zai.
then now really cmi, go slp le, nighty, pic i will see how de.
bb, nightnight.

2009-11-22T03:08:00.005+08:00

current mood: slpy~!!
well, damn tired de.
mornin slp at 7plus, then after tat wake up quite early.
then play audi n slack.
tosay is an audi day.
well, my comp still cant maple.
no mood post also.
slpy~
gonna slp~
(ppl come de, pls tag~!!)
well, nights all n sugardreams~ <33

2009-11-17T18:25:00.006+08:00

current mood: sick~
well, i'm really sick~!!
sorethroat, cough, flu is back, fever, headache~!!
but i don wan see doctor!!
well, my blog lik no ppl come lei~
ok lar, no ppl better then those irritating ppl.
well, ytd go celebrate dawin's birthday.
hav lots of fun~
but my butt super damn pain..
cause got cycle~
wake up at 8 plus.
then go to ecp cycle.
then we cycle until half, RAIN~
zzz..
sadd..
then after tat eat lunch at pp.
on the way walkin to pp, still at ecp there, everyone carryin everyone~
hahahah~
if nv rmb wrongly, is xingan n dear start first de.
then after tat, everyone call everyone to carry.
if nv rmb wrongly, i carry dear but not sure got carry xingan or not.
cant rmb.
i rmb one is dear carryin darwin, xingan, and alot lor.
hahahah~
then peipei carry them too.
then super zai lor him, carry xingan until so far~
hahahah..
then at pp, we go eat, after eatin, we saw a shop, OMG~
me, dear n xingan down there shop at tat shop.
then buy le alot stuff~ =X
ok lar, not really alot lar, BUT ALL SO CHEAP!!
SUPER CHEAP SIA, the lip gloss is lik, only $3.90?!
then then fake nails de, 24 one, jus $1.90!
then hor, mascara only at $10+++ only~!!
pls, ALL SO CHEAP~!!
wakakakaka~
then we 3 buy alot stuff.
ohya, ytd got dear, xingan, peipei, shaohong, sebas, darwin n darwin's fren.
4gals and 4guys~
say about her fren, really i hav no comment.
i saw her, she don look lik pri6 lor.
then nvm, she hav some atti really will piss ppl off.
yet, she at some point, okok lei.
so is lik, +1+1+1+1+1, then she did sth become, -5.
in the end, came to an answer of no comment.
then after tat got play task.
10 task for darwin~
hehehe..
so fun~
actually after the task wanna play double dare de.
yet too many ppl wanna go home le.
too late.
so in the end nv lor.
then go back boon keng.
then chat chat.
then when home.
chat.
then slp.
but at night of ytd jus feel my flu is back.
then ytd whole day super damn cold.
haix.
now better le.
no fever nor headache le.
at less better le, thus came to blog lor.
here are some pic from ytd.
not enough time to take more pic~
enjoy too much~
jus a few only~
dear carrying darwin.

peipei carryin xingan.

xingan carryin dear.

me and shaohong.
pei so rdm call we both take pic.
weirdo??

darwin shy shy?? =X
hahahah, don turn away mah, then can take a nicer mah~

2009-11-12T04:33:00.007+08:00

current mood: SLPY~

well, u can see, I SLPY~
hahaha..
no lar, acrually still okok..
took tis lik, amm, 9/11?
hahah..
well, gonna hav a story tellin time~
sunday, mom went to malaysia in the mornin..
then overnight there.
wake up, solo at home.
haix.
then when out wif liyi n justin.
well, when to gv watch movie(my gf is an agent).
but we lik miss the startin.
cause firstly, don kno wat to eat, waste time.
then gv no intro de.
then walk back from ps to gv waste time too.
then watch le movie, go back to ps.
bought ice-scream~!!
ohya, i bought a new earring too..
but $15..
at 77street..
now tink bah, abit waste?
=X
nvm lar.
then after tat went pei hse.
then play games.
chat.
then eh, ben came back drunk.
then was cmi lor,
they both slp.
=X
then i play maple till 6plus, wake ben for his flight.
cya in 2weeks?
then pei at 7plus.
then go pass sch, saw shuyi.
LOL
then go home.
pigpig~
wakakakaka..
then pei come my hse maplin n audiin..
then went home.
then mom come back so late~
lolx.
then tues, guys hav choir n gal don hav~!! =D
then after choir pei come, maplin n audiin again.
then pei him home, then eat then go home.
then super zai de mama, called me, said, "i today at fren house stay."
zai, solo at home again..........
so lonely..........
haix..........
then slp at 7plus, maplin.....
sot le me.
then today wakeup, pei come, maplin n audiin again.
LOL.
then went pei hse for plannin for darwin's birthday task.
AT LAST FINISH LE~
wakakkakkakka..
then when home, pongpong n fb, msn, etc~
now blog finish then go slp le.
=X
now is lik so late?
too bad my typin cant speed up.
"CAN U LIK, SPEED UP?" XD
hahahaah..
okok, ganna slp le.
so fast 5plus le..
well, nighty all.
sugardreams~ (:

2009-11-07T03:15:00.002+08:00

current mood: bit slpy
jus finish maple.
today choir.
totally forgot about it.
then lucky pei ask me go out eat.
=X
then eat, go choir.
SING~
lolx.
then go home.
then play maple.
almost fall alslp.
then go pei home.
in the end, maple lag.
so we go audi.
LOGIN MAPLE 1HR++.
LOLX.
then nvm.
then we two sot de.
keep laughin.
hahaha.
then go home.
bathbath, MAPLE AGAIN~
LOLx.
i sot le.
=X
then stop maple le oh.
now, doin fb thingy and blog lor?
hahah.
gonna slp soon.
tmr still got emcee to do.
wish me good luck bah?
=X
well, stop here.
<33 ya.

2009-11-06T03:56:00.002+08:00

current mood: slpy~
well, after postin, go pigpig le.
today wake up at 645.
tinkin i'm late n everyone reached.
well, ite, only me n peipei at there.
then recess, after sch, go thought rehearsal.
hace alot fun.
wahahaha.
then the plan did not go accordin to the original plan.
but hav a super laugh.
well, is an act for geoffrey birthday.
then we at his kicchen cook.
french toast.
heheh.
got pizza, but well, nv eat.
then after the act, we play dare or double dare.
hav quite a good laugh.
well, got cpl la ji, got ppl dance, sing, and doin weird stuff.
ohya, redmond wear my skirt.
._.
actually is for siva for the act de.
but, well, redmond go wear.
poor skirt.
as for siva inside still got pants.
redmond wear boxer inside.
lolx.
then so funny~
then the game kanna once.
is a double dare.
well, guess wat, i choose melissa, they say, kiss melissa.
well, kiss lor?
is jus game n gal n gal.
not guy n me.
so i don mind.
n i'm straight as well as her.
well, i expected it comin, so choose melissa.
=X
they confirm ask de.
so i choose melissa.
she don mind(:
thanks darling.
well, went home at around 9.
fall alslp.
due to all song lik lullaby.
=X
well, now really cmi, ganna slp.
nighty~
sugarsreams all(:
PLS TAG ME~!!

2009-11-04T01:38:00.002+08:00

current mood: normal?
well, jus finish aditin the blog again, well, ok?
well, blig awhile, gonna chiong maple le.
abit sot me.
=X
well, gtg.
today, CHOIR~
fun? ><
hahah..
gtg, gonna chiong le, bye~

2009-11-02T07:01:00.005+08:00

current mood: maybe i'm slpy?
2NOV, START MAPLE~!! XD
well, sot le.
sebastian help me chiong maple lvl.
now lvl 15?
gonna 16 le.
well, still cant jump n climb well, and one more ting, FIND THE SOLUTION FOR PEI'S COMP LE~(:
at less got ppl play gtg.
omg, sth plus plus, sebastian really damn good lor.
no mesos still giv me, help me.
THANKS~!!
well, think i go pigpig le bah..
good night~(:
*or isit good mornin?? 0.0*
hahah, watever also can lar~
ohya, ANGELA DEAR, FASTER GET WELL ORH~<33

2009-11-01T03:16:00.003+08:00

current mood: -unknown?-
well, today is a DAMN late go home.
=X
reach home at 2plus.
then bath then online at 3.
jus nice.
well, today is a sot n bored n lost n sad day.
well, watever, today have fun slackin.
cause due to rain!!
so watever, prank msg few frens, sendin, "I LOVE YOU~!!"
hahahah.
but really love them mah. (:
then got some nv reply, some don kno me.
._.
hahah.
for watever, MY BLOG IS STILL EMPTY~!!
well, gonna start playin maple.
well, is late for me lar.
but, WHO CARE?
=X
hahaha..
still sot sot.
=X
then tinkin of which job.
fire mage or assassin.
=/
so don kno lor.
hahah.
then talkin to sebastian is so RAWR.
don understand he sayin wat also.
=8
but watever, bored n enjoy also lar today.
*so it is how i ended my halloween.............*
then now fb lor.
=X
well, stop here.
now thinkin sth, now sure am i or not.
BLURED~!!

2009-10-31T02:53:00.008+08:00

current mood: -unknown-
don kno wat mood this call also.
now is hungry~!
then jus changed blogskin.
hope will lik it.
this few days happen alot stuff.
well, say happy thing, ytd went out.(:
wif justin*not my sch de* go out.
then after tat liyi join us.
we went to watch Jennifer's Body.
rated it quite high.(:
hahah.
then hav so much fun lor.
hahah..
WAN TO GO OUT AGAIN~!!
=X
then really enjoy myself.
<33 it. ^^
*sometimes feom WuChun's blog i feel meaningful.*
Sometimes, we do regret when we don't cherish things we still have but regretting makes us change the way you look at things in our future! You either lose hope in life or you CHERISH more in life and I always believe it's never too late to realise our faults, change and CHERISH!

2009-10-31T01:58:00.003+08:00

current mood: confused
i seriously don kno wat happen jus now.
y got to end off wif, i hate you?
at less tell me wat happen?
isit the changin of topics again?
or isit the thing u say i lik acting?
i really don kno.
sry, and i nv act blur.
at the moment, i'm thinkin, chould it be a joke?
but i really don kno.
i really trust u.
as my di n close fren.
i once, really once given up.
i felt so helpless le.
really feel nth can help le.
given up.
but i still treasure it.
i wan it.
but i cant seem to have it.
maybe ur frenship is sth i cant hav?
i don kno.
really don kno.
and really, i don mean to stop ur topic.
jus tat i wan to tell u, scare i forgot.
not mean to stop u n tell u don tell me.
i try to change.
maybe, i really nv change at all bah.
i really don kno.
i really vr fan.
but wat can i do?
nth.
really nth.
maybe, u hate me is right de bah.
i giv up.
tmr, no ltr, will be solo for myself le bah.
angela sick sick, tink giv her rest time bah.
jus now really hav fun playin audi.
laugh lik siao.
but after tat lag, u also lag, got abit zzz.
then u offline le, say hate me.
i really don kno.
RAWR~!!
i don kno wat i tinkin lar~!!
WATEVER~!!
RAWR~!!
NOW JUS GO N HAV A GOOD REST N SLP!!
PIGPIG NOW~!!
*another my crazy post not for seeing~*
ohya, Happy Halloween~

2009-10-23T21:44:00.009+08:00

current mood: BORED LIKE SIAO AND GOING CRAZY
so long nv blog.
haix.
totally tink i'm gonna retain lor.
3 more days is Olvl math le.
no mood study nor play nor watever~!!
seriously don kno wat i doin this year.
i don feel i am myself.
retarded..
i everyday don hav the damn mood.
how i wish i could be sick.
better lor.
then now heart there keep pain pain.
haix.
now REALLY NTH DO!!
SO BORED!!
RAWR!!
then jus now blog hopping.
go see so many blogs.
saw xingan's blog.
thx xingan.
then ytd sth happen.
between dear n darling.
seriously, i don kno wats darling thinking.
y need to say sth like tat about dear?
currently, i cant decide wat to do.
i jus hope, tat is not u.
jus hope u r the darling i kno.
and one more thing, even if dear is angry u or watever, YOU DON NEED TO IGNORE ME!
the prob is between u two, i kno i still in the middle, YET, WE R STILL FRENS RIGHT?!
Y HACK CARE ME SIA, MSG U, MSN U, ALSO NV REPLY.
watever.
seriously don kno wat u tinkin.
if hurtin fren giv u an enjoyment, pls enjoy urself.
i hav enough of it.
all this stuff is making me gone crazy again.
aiya, i don kno lar.
maybe i think too much again bah.
forget it.
everyone jus treat it as a spam bah.
the end.

2009-10-10T20:43:00.004+08:00

current mood: fine but bored =X
lolx.
so long nv post le, nowadays exam lik siao.
but nv really go and study much.
today after poa when home.
then i cannot study sia..><
OMG~!!!
haix..
haix. so long nv post..><
got alot of stuff.
but lazy post.
so much things happen..
happy, sad.
i gtg le.
bye.

2009-10-10T20:21:00.005+08:00

current mood: HAPPY!! (:
I SO DAMN HAPPY TO SAY, TODAY IS MY HUBBY DE BIRTHDAY!!!
亲爱的，生日快乐!! 10/10
is WuChun lar~(:

2009-09-24T13:21:00.000+08:00

current mood: angry
now going to take plane le.
use lst min to post n go internet.
will miss u all.
so long..
2hrs b4 taking off ned to do tis n tat.
so long.
jus now very peichek wif my mom.
she really nv tell me not to put my contact lens solution into my bag.
only call me to rmb to bring.
then i forogt cannot bring liquid more then 100ml.
then forgot wat.blam me for wat?!
now going to take plane le.
wish she don kpkb again bah.
haix.
sometimes really cannot take it lor.
aiya, don kno lar.
going to indonesia le.
bacck on sun.
<33 everyone.
will miss you all..(:

2009-09-19T19:29:00.002+08:00

current mood: BORED LIK SIAO~!!
today whole day at home~!!
TOTALLY BORED LIKE SIAO~!!
RAWR~!!
ROTTING LIKE HELL~!!
I HATE TO BE AT HOME ALONE!!
WHY NO ONE GET IT?!

2009-09-18T19:04:00.002+08:00

current mood: -NIL-
well, gonna post for fews days de.
well, today first bah. (:
today, went sch at 10plus.(:
cause only go for POA paper 1.
so go sch early.
then go home for lunch.
then meet them.
then slack, slack, slack.
then go to plaza singapura.
then go home eat dinner.
so now nth do.
BORED~
lolx.
msn got prob.
EEYEE~!
cannot open msn~!
RAWR!!
then now nth do.
BORED~
then ytd, wed, tues, i cannot really rmb wat we did lar.
mostly, SLACK!!
=X
hehe, ps forgot le.
got rmb abit but forgot when le.
super bad memory?
LOLX.
go off le. bye~ (:

2009-09-14T19:51:00.003+08:00

current mood: damn tired~!!
today sibe tired~!
slpy now.
goin to go bath then go slp le.
today, nth much lar.
then cher say, we class till 1.10pm.
so i in class waited.
till lik about, eh, about 2.30pm bah.
then go here n there.
then study.
lolx.
then in the end go mac study.
did not study much, but rmb quite alot tings.
ps, did not help much in the poa.
i'm such a lousy ppl.
still dare teach ppl.
ps wor, nv help out much.
i really wanna help, but ....
so i think i study but myself better?
lolx.
but i cannot lar~!
aiya, don kno lar.
goin to bath n slp le.
bye~
totally today vr tired.
ohya, today, almost whole day keep listenin to Gee.
><
well, gtg.
go bath & then slp le.
BYE~!
early sweet dreams~ (:

2009-09-13T23:59:00.003+08:00

current mood: eh, not sure wor~
actually quite tired.
haha.
today wake up at 10plus plus.
then mom cook lunch.
so nv go out n meet to eat.
lolx.
then drag n drag, we went to wild wild wet at last.
haha.
so did not bring anything for dryin myself nor clothes.
so i we went to www lor.
but on the way, RAIN~!
so was lik......
then lucky when takin bus, rain stop.(:
then when to Q up for puttin money into Funky! card.
opps~!
forgot the change the points~!
lolx.
ohya, back to jus now, we 3 share the price lor.
then was lik vr lol?
i wearin wat i wear to go swim.
LOLX.
ok lar, they also.
then play, play and PLAY~!
but i kanna drink the water alot of times.
EEYEE~!
then finish playin.
when home wif the wet wet clothes.
I'M WET~!
have alot of fun today.
(:
then took the bus home, 21~!
so long~!
freezing cold lor.
then they two was lik, eh, ok?
but also cold lar.
hahaha.
then when home, mom help me make food.
=X
then eat abit of hot stuff n then go bath.
eh, my hse is so much warmer then jus outside the hse??
=S
then jus finish playin wif audi.
stupid lor.
keep lag.
haix.
sadded.
TODAY IS A VERY ENJOYABLE DAY!! ^^

2009-09-13T02:41:00.005+08:00

current mood: maybe tired
well, today is a long, enjoyable, fun, maybe sad, wet, and dk wat day.
well, this morning wake up around 9am plus plus.
then went to meet keith for breakfast since goin out to escape.
then sebastian did not manage to wake up on time.
lolx.
1120 wake up.
then 1144 meet up.
*if i'm not wrong*
lolx.
then call ppl to join us.
then is lik last min.
cause 3ppl.
but 6tickets.
so manage to call esther go.
seriously, i feel bit wasted.
nvm.
is i call her go.
nvm.
then went to escape and play.
but esther played 2 or 3 games only.
went off and gone~
...
so feel bit wasted.
then now left wif 2 tickets.
haix.
don kno how to do wif it too.
then when home wet.
then play the pirate ship for 4times.
two at the left & two at the right.
then each side is one at the 3rd row and another is at the last row.
currently still abit drowsy.
then lik goin to vomit wehn play it.
tryin to stay strong.
=X
then when goin back, go to the acrcade at white sands shopping mall.
played the house of the dead 4 & para dance or sth.
lolx.
i don kno how to.
so jus try it out.
haha.
then the gun of the house of the dead 4 got prob.
so we went down to bugis and play.
lolx?
then reach there got another pro playin.
tis one is a guy, using two guns at the same time, played to the ens.
i rmb got another guy is one guns complete all.
haha.
then i'm still wet.
so totally feel vr cool.
haha.
today spend lots of money again.
i must control myself wif money more often.
goin bankrupt soon.
then on the way back, talkin about some stuff.
then walk and walk and walk.
lolx.
then find out actually sometings really try to do it b4 it's too late lar.
不要等到他/她死了，走了，才去珍惜。应为太迟了。
it's nv too late lor.
then cry.
=X
cant control.
and really, sometimes, i got to tink also lar.
"at that moment" always happen.
so when u发现u hav did sth wrong, jus say sry.
and really i'm sry to anyone, anyone, i hav hurt before.
"regret" will always have.
haiya, just talk about lots of stuff lor.
then tinkin back, some of darwin's family members are too......
if i can, i don mind, i can help/try to help out in their studies.
and i also can improve my studies too.
if i can do it.
so pls, don regret, if hav, try to make it better.
i tink i better go slp le.
bye~
sweet dreams.
lastly i tink, i need to don tink too much & DON EMO!!

2009-09-11T21:10:00.004+08:00

current mood: low??
well, so bored now.
eh, forgot post so many days de.
=X
now a bit low.
but still will tink wat to post bah.
starting with wednesday actually.
well, 09/09/09.
last post is jus over the night so is like become over lor.
then wednesday was also the same?
sian lor.
mornin go sch for exam.
ENGLISH~!!
paper 1 de section 1 i write about the topic "promises".
then alot ppl write about it also.
then section 2 is informal writing.
then paper2 ah, eh, passageA i dont know how to do.
=X
then after tat go out eat lunch wif sebastian.
lolx.
he call darwin n sujun but both not free.
keith oversea.
lolx.
then go home after tat.
lolx.
then peipei help me do lic!!
(:
then can play le.
muhahahahaha.
lvl21 (:
then keith also back from malaysia.
forgot about others le.
then thursday.
which is ytd.
when out with keith, darwin & sebastian.
then actually wanna go sch for poa.
but i lazy.
lolx.
then nv go lor.
then actually need meet them at 9?
then i wake up at 9.
lolx.
then took quite long to go out.
all thx to my contact lens.
=X
okok, i also vr long.
=X
then sebastian when to poa.
=X
then slack slack.
wait for sebastian to come out.
then i saw classmate come out.
haix.
then went to bugis.
then go arcade to play.
spend $$$.
lolx.
then go buy shoe.
actually is wan buy shoe le.
then brought a shoe at $36.90.
lolx.
wearin it on monday.
since old one is in such a GOOD condition.
then go hav a late lunch b4 the movie.
lolx.
watch a movie call "9".
eh, quite boring.
=X
almost fall alslp.
><
then slack slack.
go arcade again.
but nv play.
lolx.
guys jus don shop.
=X
then go slack,slack n slack lor.
then i no $$$ le~!!
RAWR~!!
still got so many ppl owe me money.
><
then the shoe hvn collect $$$ from mom.
=X
then now go back play audi lor.
tmr maybe got go out bah.
today jus go sch for choir lor.
nth much.
bored.
<33
gtg.
bb.

2009-09-09T00:44:00.002+08:00

current mood: okok?=X
first post. (:
well, new blog, same look. =X
eh, got to go and slp le lar.
it's quite late now.
now is about going to 1am.
omg~!!
so now got to go and slp le.
HVN STUDY FOR TMR PAPER YET~!!
OMG~!!
haix.
so now going off and go to slp le.
nights~ (:
COLOURFUL SIA~!!!!!
btw,today is a nice day to rmb. 09/09/09 (: